I had the privilege of working with Jen Eramith, Akashic Records Channeler recently and the first question I asked was not will I find love; will I have money? My first question was, "What is the restlessness in my soul?"
It's something I've had all my life, even as a child. Even in the now-ness of joy, the restlessness stirs.
According to the Records, my soul is very old and very expansive. I haven't lived a lot of human lives because my soul just isn't interested in squeezing itself into the small box of a human life and if you think about it, it IS a small box, isn't it? Then why am I here? I am here now because of the increasing number of enlightened, expansive souls on earth. Even as a teen, my favorite expression was, "Desperately seeking my own kind". I'm also here because of the path that the world is on; visualize birds living in cages, when suddenly, the doors to the cages pop open. What do the birds do? Some may immediately fly away, seizing freedom; others may cower in their cages, even though freedom awaits because this is all they know; this is what's safe. I am waiting for the cages to pop open; I am waiting to show you that you can fly. You can, you know.
Something that came up again and again was the feeling of being trapped. In past lives, I was literally and figuratively, trapped. I will certainly seek out Jen again to understand the meanings of literally being in prisons (note the "S" at the end) in past lives. From the Records came my father's voice, "You make your bed, you lie in it". Scary. In my reluctance to be trapped, I've neglected engagement. I say no before I get to a place where I'm trapped. My lesson in this life and the healing lies in this simple act of saying yes to people, places and things and if I have to say no somewhere down the line, saying no and living with the disappointment of others. I have to trust that I can say no; it makes it easier to say yes for the things I want now.
Something else I learned: I am a professional wanderer. It's where my magic, intuition and creativity lie. I don't have a track. I'm on the right track not having one. I came here to be; to show up and expand the light. In all the lives I've had as spirit guides and angels, I am living my human life as if I'm an angel and spirit guide. Yes, this is where I literally cried.
I hope my sharing this with you creates resonance in your life. Even though it is my path, my record, restlessness, feeling trapped, saying yes and no, and searching for meaning are all part of the small, beautiful box that is human.
